Sunday, April 24, 2011
I found myself at the Leadership Training for Christ Southwest convention again this year in Phoenix, Arizona. Only this year, I didn't have a wound vac on me that I carried around all of the time and I hadn't just had emergency surgery to remove the lapband that was infected. Instead it's been just over a year since that time and about a month until my one year of having another lapband put in. It has been an experience and something that I'm learning to live with. It has taken time to make old habits go away, like eating as much as you want and expecting to not throw up. I have learned to stop eating when my body says to or I will pay the consequences and that is no fun. I have hit a plateau although I believe I have lost a few more pounds since last month. I'm more learning to look at my body with 48 lbs gone and appreciate that I am thinner. I haven't ever felt any thinner inside and appreciated that being thin enough to keep the weight off. I am feeling thinner inside and enjoying having some of the weight gone. I really think I can keep it gone and live like this. It's a great feeling to have. I hope you all had a good Easter and God bless you and your loved ones.
Saturday, April 2, 2011
Relatively speaking in weight, that is. I lost one pound this past month. I'm really frustrated but am thinking I need to just listen to my body more. Paul says that I talk to myself and that I even answer myself so I should be able to listen at least sometime. I'm doing better at not going past the point of no return. I've found that if I eat too much and then throw up, I'm better off having only liquids the rest of that day or I will just keep doing it again. I've had to learn this the hard way and have had a few miserable days. This past week was better and hopefully I'll learn about eating less, etc. I am staying in my smaller clothes, yeah, size 14, down from size 22 a year ago. God is blessing me in this and I will keep going. I have the best husband as a cheerleader and reminder of what is best and I will keep him around for another 32 years, I guess. Tomorrow is Sunday and it will be a great day of worship with my family at the Gathering at Palo Verde.