How to find some more weight

While many of you would probably be glad to loan me some extra weight, I really feel I have plenty of my own.  However, the insurance company believes that your BMI must be at a certain level to have lap band surgery.  They don't look at the fact that my BMI WAS at that level before I had the surgery and then I lost weight and then some because of the infection so now I'm below that BMI.  I must gain 4 more pounds (have already gained 5) in order to qualify for them to put a new lap band in.  Silly, I say!

Back at Work and Disturbing news

I'm back at work and boy do I feel tired at the end of the day.  I know it'll get better and everyone at work is great about letting me do the paperwork (which they don't really want to do anyway) and not have to wander from machine to machine too much. 
I have had several discussions with several of my fellow employees in the last few days.  It seems that after I came down with the infection, several other employees told them that the surgeon who I used did not have good outcomes with his surgeries on a regular basis.  Interesting news.  I don't know that it would have changed what happened but it is somewhat disturbing.  I find it interesting and disturbing that I can search the Internet and find nothing about this particular doctor.  No sanctions, no real complaints, other than that he has no bedside manner (lots of docs are that way as are lots of other people).  But in the small community of nurses and those who work together in a hospital, the information is known and very closely guarded.  Makes it scary to be a patient.  I think when I have the lapband put back in, I will request that his associate do  the surgery.  I have no proof, no way to know that the infection was anything other than a fluke but I still don't want to go there again.  At least I know I have God on my side and all will be well.

Have a wonderful day!

Lions, Tigers and Work, Oh no!

I've been really wanting to go back to work and now that they say I can, it's a bit scary.  I still get tired easily and they are really picky at work, they won't let me stop and take a nap.  Those silly doctors, thinking their patients need that blood now :)
Anyway, I go back tomorrow, so we will see how well I hold up.  Maybe the census will be good to us and it won't be too busy or have too many antibodies. 
It reminds me of something that happened at church many years ago. A child was in trouble with her daddy and he was taking her out of the auditorium and as they went through the back doors, she yelled, "Ya'll pray for me!".. ...I think that's what I need, ya'll pray for me!

When?

When will all of this be better?  I'm exhausted from going to the grocery store today and the fabric shop (that's probably what did it).  I go back to work next week and I'm exhausted thinking about it.  Surely it will get better with time.

Change

I have changed, size that is.  I am so excited. I went shopping for dresses for the graduations and I did not have to go to the PLUS sizes.  It was so fun.  Found a more conservative dress for the Abilene graduation and one that is bright colors and remind of Malibu.  I also found one I can where here for this or that and a pair of sandals to wear with them.  Now I just need a pair of hot pink sandals to go with the Malibu dress and I'll be in good shape.

Hape a blessed day!

Alas, it is gone :)

The wound vac has been taken off.  I am so glad.  I was very tired of carrying it around for the last three weeks.  I told Paul last night that I felt like I felt when I was pregnant with the girls, I wanted to be able to sleep on my stomach again :).  Soon....

Now we do a week of wet/dry dressing and I can go back to work next week.  None too soon.  We have one guy working using a brace and a cane and another tech managed to break her leg while practicing to get her license to ride her Harley.  Oh well, job security. 

I'm in the midst of discussion about what I will have to do to get the lap band put back in and when.  I'll talk with the surgeon in two weeks about it.  It depends on if the insurance is going to make me gain some of the weight back to be at the right BMI.  Maybe not, according to the Physician's Assistant.  We'll see.
Between graduations coming up, going back to work, a new grandbaby soon to be born and getting ready for a wedding, I'm not sure what I have time to do.  I keep telling myself that God is in control and to let go and it will all happen in His time.  I thank God that He is in control because I'm not and never really will be.  It's His job!

Another Day Tired (but not sick :))

I spent today mostly doing errands.  Marilyn came and changed out my wound vac packing and we did it without any drugs, yeah.  Then I had to go to the post office to mail packages (the baby was born two months ago, glad the blankets are big.  Then went over to St. Joe's to talk to the people in Occupational Health about what they need for when I can finally go back to work.  Then talked to friends at work and on the return things at Old Navy.  Then the appointment of the day, the eye hcheck up.  Everything going good until the doc says, "have you had to take any steroids?" and I said, "yes, for my asthma and they injected my knee".  Well, little known fact, at least to me, is that steroid treatment can cause cataracts to form in the eyes.  I have them in both eyes but they are small and he doesn't want to do anything for now.  Going back in six months.  So, getting old really, really stinks!  I'm sorry, boss, I don't have time to go to work, I have to take care of medical issues.  I'm sorry, creditors, I don't have the money to pay you as I have to take care of medical issues.  I think I'll have to let God handle all of this, but it is hard.  I think I can do it but I can't.  I just have to let him do it.

Exhausted

That is the appropriate term for today.  I spent the weekend with 319 3rd-12th graders and all of their associated family members at Leadership Training for Christ Southwest in Phoenix.  It was a wonderful exhausting weekend made more so by having only been out of the hospital for two weeks and having to carry around a wound vac.  I'm glad I went but I have taken today off to rest.  Will start back on problems and quilting tomorrow.  I still can't go back to work.  But the wound is healing and I may be off the wound vac in about a week. 
I am finding it interesting in my eating habits.  If I lose any more weight, I will not be eligible for a new lapband.  In fact, I have to gain 7 pounds to be eligible.  It will all work out I'm sure.
The doctor says that all is healing and that the knee surgery that I need should be done before we put a new lapband in.  My only problem is that I do have to work sometime.  Hmmmm..... then there is there are graduations and weddings.  God has blessed me with all of these wonderful opportunities.  I have to stay positive and I know it will all work out.