New Developments

The last month has and is continuing to be a series of rollar coasters.  I have applied for a new job, had 4 interviews, filled out paperwork, went pee in a cup and waited not so patiently.  Still waiting......should knew in the next few days if all is a go for me to give 2 weeks notice and start a new job.  I have to believe that God would not offer me the job and then pull the rug out because of things out of my current control.  I'll know soon but I'm tired of waiting and having trouble not worrying.  So much for life....
Gained back the four pounds I lost last month.  Shall I blame it on chocolate.  Probably.  The doctor put 1/2 cc of saline back in and I am hoping it will make a difference.  I will have to be very good about snacking and such with the new job as I will be spending a lot of time in a home office right next to the kitchen.  It will be interesting.  More info to come.
Hope all have a blessed week.

It's been about a year....

I found myself at the Leadership Training for Christ Southwest convention again this year in Phoenix, Arizona.  Only this year, I didn't have a wound vac on me that I carried around all of the time and I hadn't just had emergency surgery to remove the lapband that was infected.  Instead it's been just over a year since that time and about a month until my one year of having another lapband put in.  It has been an experience and something that I'm learning to live with.  It has taken time to make old habits go away, like eating as much as you want and expecting to not throw up.  I have learned to stop eating when my body says to or I will pay the consequences and that is no fun.  I have hit a plateau although I believe I have lost a few more pounds since last month.  I'm more learning to look at my body with 48 lbs gone and appreciate that I am thinner.  I haven't ever felt any thinner inside and appreciated that being thin enough to keep the weight off.  I am feeling thinner inside and enjoying having some of the weight gone.  I really think I can keep it gone and live like this.  It's a great feeling to have.  I hope you all had a good Easter and God bless you and your loved ones.

Still standing still

Relatively speaking in weight, that is.  I lost one pound this past month.  I'm really frustrated but am thinking I need to just listen to my body more.  Paul says that I talk to myself and that I even answer myself so I should be able to listen at least sometime.  I'm  doing better at not going past the point of no return.  I've found that if I eat too much and then throw up, I'm better off having only liquids the rest of that day or I will just keep doing it again.  I've had to learn this the hard way and have had a few miserable days.  This past week was better and hopefully I'll learn about eating less, etc.  I am staying in my smaller clothes, yeah, size 14, down from size 22 a year ago.  God is blessing me in this and I will keep going.  I have the best husband as a cheerleader and reminder of what is best and I will keep him around for another 32 years, I guess.  Tomorrow is Sunday and it will be a great day of worship with my family at the Gathering at Palo Verde. 

Chocolate and Quilting

What causes chocolate cravings?  I wish I could figure it out.  I am definitely having them.  It's hard to keep the calories down when eating chocolate.
Mostly doing okay with the band.  Ate one too many grapes at lunch today and had a difficult few minutes afterwards.  However, kept everything down, so okay.  Trying to eat just the right amount.  Mostly working okay with it.  Hopefully I'll lose this month.
Looking forward to a quilt workshop on Friday.  Lots of good things to learn.  The instructor was the 2010 Quilting Teacher of the Year and seems really good.  I really am looking forward to learning this method of paper piecing.  Ya'll have a great day.  God bless you all.

Where to go now?

Saw the doctor today and convinced him to add .5 ml saline to my band.  Maybe this will lessen the food intake.  I have to figure out how to limit the type of snacks to lower in calories.  I really don't like carrots for snacks anymore.  I think the years of dieting have really made me not like certain foods.  sigh...  The nutritionist gave me a list of things to try and that helps a little bit but I still gained this month.  I really think I just need to exercise so I'm signing up for the Walk 10000 steps program at work.  Paul and I have talked about walking before dinner for several months so maybe we can start that and go together or I'll just take my MP3 player and walk.  Hopefully I can do something that way to keep losing.  Time is the issue.  Never enough but I'm going to have to make the choices.  We went to Las Vegas and I did good there.  Saw some beautiful sights and some ugly sights.  People, people, everywhere, really glad to be home.

Plateaus

Plateaus are interesting in life.  When I think of a plateau, I think of a desert scene with a flat area where you can stand and see a beautiful scene out in the distance.  A plateau in weight loss can be much the same.  I am at a plateau.  I'm not really losing, I'm not really gaining and I'm trying to get a handle on the right way to eat.  But I can look into the distance and know that eventually I'll make it to that beautiful place in the distance.  I'm going to see the nutritionist this next week to discuss ways to handle things like getting so hungry (because we're busy at work) that I eat too fast and then I end up throwing up, dealing with Paul's allergy to fresh fruits and vegetables which means it's not practical to have salad for dinner and few other issues.  Hopefully she will have some good suggestions.  Just another bump on the road.  Ya'll have a good week and God bless.

A storm in the desert

We have had such a cold snap here in Arizona, I was beginning to wonder if we'd get warm  And while I enjoy wearing cold weather clothes, I don't have many and that makes for difficulties, so I layer.  At work, I wear a long sleeve shift under my scrub top under my long sleeve lab coat.  Now in the summer, I complain about the long sleeve lab coat so, because the coat is thrown away after several days, I just take the sleeves and cut them off.  Not right now, though.  However, I am wearing a size medium lab coat.  That was exciting. 
Sometimes in life we go through a cold spell.  I think I may be there.  I keep thinking I'll catch up but the faster I go the behinder I get and if I get any more behind, I'll have gained weight and that would be no fun!  I think that I'll have to just take one project at a time and finish each one and in the year 2525, if anyone is still alive, they can finish my last project :).

May you all have a blessed week and may the cold become warm for you too.